reflexions

2005-11-02T09:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm i guess this is the first time i m writing my blog with no apparent motive..so wat the hell do i wanna write about ya?

Hari Raya is tmrw, so buzying myself with cleaning the house and getting my room in good viewing condition..haha..not showroom quality unfortunately.well this yr is the first yr i m giving out the benjamins..think i'll be down 3-500buckaroos.tt's like a quarter of my current salary..speaking of which, my current job might b of no more. pretty sad huh.3mths in the line n have to look for another..this place is crazy..i feel like going to my boss n ask her to stab me in the back.the pain is juz the same. i'll miss the kids the most i guess.isn't tt wat i'm in for..for the kids.somehow there was juz no room for negotiation.no room for error.wth, perhaps it's a blessing in disguise.juz pray in my heart, either this is juz a challenge..or perhaps i'm destined to do greater things.haha..well.let god lead the way

2005-10-13T13:18:00.000+08:00

Hey hey..it's been a year n my blog still exists...hahaha..well..let's do a year in review should we?

Now, last time i did this blog..i was gushing abt sepang...this time round..i was watching motogp on tv.n guess wat?i slept..yes..i fell asleep, on a sunday afternoon..where was that adrenaline, that rush..well,tiredness and comfort crept in..So i fell asleep, n woke up juz in time to see vale's fans do a short skit on snow white and the seven dwarves...haha..how cute...vale u rock..

Now..u know in spore blogwriters have their 15mins of fame in the newspapers lately..angels of hate dissing muslims n their fear of dogs. students being reprimanded for words of disgust, disrespect for anonymous yet identifiable teachers..some say, hey...u mean students neva do tt?u mean there are no anti-muslims in spore..well i wd say yeah they exist..but then usually it's a one-off thing u noe..like in the chatroom where u say ur dislike for so n so, n after tt, when u close the comp..it doesnt stay animore. In the blog's case, they do stay..n ppl after ppl read it..or so i think...for my blog,i guess readership is non-existent..hahaha

oh bali juz got bombed..how sad for the world and the rest of the muslims who now will haf to suffer from spite..but then, bali didnt reali redeem themselves..guess wat it offerred to the tourists...free TATTOOS and MASSAGES..my goodness tattoos?isnt tt so un-Islamic?it's like playing fire with fire..n this adds to the extremists' armoury of examples of Us vs Them..Islam vs The World.

Well one thing for sure, the year has been one disaster after another..katrina..bali..pakistan and india..etc2..now do u wonder..is the end near?

A year has passed..the cycle is complete..but for me personally..nothing much has changed..a year older, none the wiser...shucks. Till next year,hahaha..hopefully not lah huhhhh

2004-10-12T10:30:00.000+08:00

Back from Sepang with a cough,flu,sore throat as well as having lost my voice.like they say,u cannot haf too much of a good thing..damn i m dying here.4 days n 3 nites is certainly a lot to write abt..especially if a time is spent in the car..listening to old mat rock jiwang songz.it was a lot of fun.but not the kind of fun tt i usually haf.

let's first talk abt being at sepang..man it's great..the sound of bikes' engines..being able to see the action live..it's so much different from juz being in front of the telly..the sense of anticipation is much greater.n u can pick ur spot..ur fav viewing area so tt u can c ur fav section of the circuit..but i guess the best part of being there is juz being able to say "yeah i was there when pedrosa won his 250cc tittle n when vale shook off his previous race crash n stretch his lead.."

but on the flip side..imagine the first day a shirt cost 75rm..the next day 120rm..n i ask the person "smalam kan 75"..dengan rileknyer he deny it..aiseh..so i said.."takper..lain tempat ada..tk rugi tk beli kt sini"

ok.let's talk abt the ppl i went with..they r a bunch of mat rocks..hahahah.cannot take it.all the old old mat rock songz..but it's great..juz tt i dont like the fact tt these ppl r kinda narrow in their selection of songz..but still..they r great.chill slalu..hahaha.more like wak wak than abg2..more interested in sightseeing n eating..rather than clubbing n shopping n enjoying the metropolitan lifestyle of kl..but a funny bunch..n the funny malaysian commercials make us laugh even more..the best will be this boy starting a pantun.."anak burung, anak kera..silakan ana"hahaha..pantun aper tu?hahahaha

but i guess wat keeps a clique together is tt they always haf someone outside the clique to diss abt..usually the weakest member of another clique.,i guess the weakest member of both clique find comfort in not having to protect himself from ridicule n instead enjoy ridiculing the other guy..i juz find it funny..two cliques will juz ridicule the most cock up of the other clique..how come not the rest ah?n this two cliques actually quite friendly towards each other..juz these frequent inside jokes..juz a lingering thought..ani help from psych or soci students?hahaha

the accomodation was a dump..wat police welfare..the place looks like it's been neglected for a yr..n tv onli haf tv3 n tv2..super slack..but oklah.the rate was cheap..n we juz needed a place to stay..

if someone ask me to go with them again..i think..why not..juz take it as a break from my usual pace of work n kind of fun..n juz chill with them..n when i go back to sepang again next yr..i will b more ready.hopefully with a new digicam..hahaha..to enjoy the raceday..cheers

2004-08-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

helluuu

my last blog was on july 8th.so it's been a pretty long time huh..well..i dont think i have been tt bz..mebbe juz tt lazy..

now..i've been in the financial planning industry for like 2 mths now..n it's been hell of a ride..i dunno how long i'll b in here.but i'm enjoying (n suffering) every minute of it..one reason i wanna do dis is bcos..i've always felt tt i dunno who ur frens realli r..n perhaps now is a gd time as any to weed those fakers out..u noe..i did ask a couple of my frens out..n not all is bcos ofmy new work.some were going abroad..some for the occasional chit chat..so i was pissed tt peeps played me out..helloooo..they r students..do u think i m tt hard up to force them to sign up?

i believe tt this is a great job.if i want juz the $ n the bling bling..i wd haf gone into real estate..but i like the human aspect of this job..i like the socializing aspect of this job.i like making more frens..rediscover old ones..n keep those loyal ones..

i mean..unless u dont believe in insurance..u dont believe in financial planning..u believe tt u shd enjoy till u rot n then live a fucked up retirement..then b my guest..i dont force a gun to ur head n say "sign mutha fucker..sign.."..n when they do i wont snigger n whisper "sucker"...

i dont think tt any of my fren who gave me the opportunity to practise my presentatn skills or were willing to mit me n noe more abt the financial planning concept said when they sign.."tt asshole..he conned me.."..or if they dont.."wat the fuck..y dont u juz give up..roll over n die plzzzz"..

ppl ask..wat if u leave man?so wat if i leave?i mite even die tmrw for god's sake..but whilst i m still in this line..wat i give is my purely professional advice tt best suit the client's financial needs n goals..to the best of my knowledge or ability..

actualli it's quite weird..the pps who r now quite supportive of me rite now..were not even my frens like mebbe 3mths back..so yeah..i met a few gr8 ppl through my work..

up to this day..i think i can count w one or two hands the no of ppl i gave out the url of this blog..i dont like to be linked to other pp's blog..i juz like the mystery of the WorldWideWeb..hahaha

well..i think i probably bitched enuff for todae..till next time bitch..

2004-07-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

social commentary

zomeone remarked tt my blog is more of a social commentary.n y not..society bugs me more then ever..n tt someone told me to write a piece on the death of monogamy (in a rlnship, not marriage) in spore.no..monogamy is NOT dead..juz less revered.hahaha.n y not.u r not bounded to the other half until u r married.n i suppose..if the other party stray,then the other party is not the one..n isnt it better tt u got to noe of this BEFORE u get married.so going out with other gerls/guys when u haf a beau is not such a bad thing after all u noe.of coz.if the arsehole stray after u get married..now tt for me has no positive effect at all.
thus.it's better to marry a bad gerl/guy turned good..than a gd guy/gerl..bcos the bad gerl/guy has done it all..whereas the goody two shoes may b tempted to u noe...hahaha.this is actuali wat a close fren told me k..i take no credit for such an idea,i actuali haf no preference.juz the hotter the better.hahaha

another thing tt bugs me is the seeming rise of beggins..i haf been approached 3 times in 2 wks..all stating no money for the ride.the first one was not tt bad..i was sitting in the train n a guy..seemingly mentally unstable ask me for 2 buckz.after questioning a bit.i went down with him at redhill,to check tt it's true there's a centre for the mentally ill.after informing the station officer of this incident,i did give the guy the 2 bucks tt i promised.it was touching when i walked out of the train tt he told me not to b angry n not beat him up.tt ppl actuali beat him up.the 2nd one i think is this mat rock.."brader.ader 2 dolar"fuck!i was standing up in the mrt going to work for god's sake.no way m i gonna gif this able bodied slacker 2 bucks. the last one was today.dis guy asked for ciggy.so my fren offered.then he asked for 2 bucks saying no money to pay electricity etc.HELLO?2 dollars??aniwae..no need to say these 3 ppl wat race..wat strikes me is tt..if u see someone who puts his/her hand into the dustbin for cans to sell.guess which race r they?even the old n the desperate haf some self respect for themself to earn a bit of living on their own.sad huh?

after tt i went home..then going down the escalator.i saw an old Malay lady standing outside the station selling epok2.i tot ok lahh.buy some even though i not hungry.so i went to buy potato epok2.as i walked away n took a first bite.it's actually sardine.i hate sardine.so i went back to change lah.she took the packet from me..then gif me a new one..but b4 tt she took out one epok2 from the packet..i was fuming mad of coz.eh..i was trying to help u noe..n it's the lady's fault.i told her i want potato epok2.i dumped the sardine epok2 into the dustbin n promised myself never to buy anything from there.u might think i was being petty.but hey.if u were to buy coke from aniwhere..n when u drink n realise tt it was actuali sprite.do u think the counter will fill up to the level where u left the sprite at..no business sense at all.not tt i expected much from a roadside epok2 seller.

pretty long blog.mebbe to make up for the lack of reading material in there.cheers

2004-06-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

chain letters..

man..hate these chain letters.whether thay r a curse or to bless u..to b fair..i dont pass on chain letters.nevamind ah..let the hex b on me.i m a risk taker.go ahead..but todae was a bit too much ahh..firstly..it's not an email..it's a goddamn bulletin post on friendster.a latin prayer of death saying tt if u dont pass it on, a member of my family will die within a year.as always, i wanna shrug it off..but this time round, the target of the chain letter is not me.tt is if my memory serves me rite lah. i kinda feel a chill down my spine juz thinking abt it.so now i m in a conundrum.shd i paste it or not? the thing is ppl qn how come ppl find it easier to pass on a dirty joke or funny remarks than pas on an email tt praises god's might etc.so then i didnt pass any lah..no matter how good it is..most to most juz send it to a paricular person or grp of ppl jer..so back to my conundrum. so now how?

2004-06-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

women

yesterday i was going back home on the mrt.then dis happened..two indian ladies, i name them A n B for easier referencing.they were unsettled by dis Bangla looking at them.so A said "do u haf a problem eith us?stop staring.if not i'll call the police." n "eh.you dont understand english ah" so the Bangla nodded his head, n turned his gaze to another direction. then of course, he turned to look again, perhaps bemused at the incident. A dis time shouted "wat did i say?stop staring!"..wah.heart boiling sehh.imagine a scenario if a hot indian male would look at them, would they do the same thing?i dont think the Bangla even meant to stare at them, ok maybe he meant to.but the point is..wat the heck.such annoying arrogance.wat..no one cannot look at them unless they approve of it..it;s like u noe gangsters look a t each other then say "stare wat stare?not happy ah?"..can u see the similarities?sighz.it'a an ugly world out there..

2004-06-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

an accident at the Padang

tonite we had our usual rugby trg at the Padang.it was not usual in the sense tt it was quite slack.however,things got more unusual.
we were contemplating on going to the hot/cold pool or carry on playing touch.so most were lepaking all over the field,some maybe helping out w the Div 2 or the younger players.
suddenly i hear a loud crash n turned to c a red vespa by the side of the road.it has overran a stationary stray rugby ball on the road.so i rushed to the road n started directing traffic.
coincidentally, an ambulance was juz besides the vespa.so immediate medical attention was given.furthermore, we had two med students in our midst trg.
i can hear the guy cursing n swearing at wat the stupid ball was doing on the road..yada yada yada.n as a fellow rider.i sympathise with his bitching,after recently recovered from a nasty incident from an errant van driver myself.
however,i think the rider might b more than responsible for this unfortunate accident.1stly, the ball was stationary.wat was he doing tt he could not see the ball?his two tires overran the ball.2ndly, he was the first vehicle there.he muz have sped off after the light turned green in his favour.3rdly, u noe lah how difficult to manoeveur a vespa..tire so small,wanna react surely skid..but the fact tt his two tires overran the ball means tt he did not see it at all.
however,there are some migitating factors.the road was darker than most spore roads.who was to expect a rugby ball in the middle of the rd?(actually may not b true..it's the Padang for goodness sake)
but it is always to the benefit of the rider id he is to practise extra precaution.partly due to his lack of attention on the road,this unfortunate accident had taken place.wat a way to end the night's trg...

2004-05-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

wat ifs...

there i was playing ps2 with my cuzzin..anione noes the game final eleven?yes..tt..so i was using milan n he munich..so he asked "eh..rikjaard maser gullit takder,dier masih main tak?..so i replied."ader ahh.dier muda dari gullit ngan basten.maser fandi main kat ajax..gullit ngan basten jer ader per.." so then we joked "wahh..fandi kirakan kalau stay kat ajax...mesti dah tk coach SAF..mesti kat entah maner tahh..bodoh kan tknak main ajax main kat indonesia..lepas tu main untuk groningen skrang entah dah jadi aper tu club." worse was to follow.."kalau dia stay ajax.agaknya dia takkan kahwin ngan wendy jacobs" with tt we burst into rapturous laughter..hahaha..if only..life lived upon hindsight is the best..hahaha..

2004-05-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

gays n trans

i was on the train one day n dis person with long hair came sitting down..i turned to c..n omigod..it's someone from my camp..creepyy..so i tried to reassure myself..no lah..it cant b..but it was real..flash forward to a few days later..i was out with my frens n then i saw him/her again..w another trans..this is actuali the first person i noe..tt undergone the transformation so to speak..

now..again on the mrt..saw 2 gays..one of them the voice quite feminine..the other as per normal guy w above average look i guess..i wonder y the leaning towards the same kind..supposing tt he would b quite popular w the gerls..

kept bumping into gays in the mrt..n u can actuali c the intimacy in slight ways..in the way they sit..the way he catch the attention of the other party when he wanna talk by holding his hand..kinda urgh if u ask me..

n i wonder...isit juz me or most gays n trans r Malays?

2004-05-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm.how long has it been since i left this thing untouched?well..looks like it's still not the end of exams for me cos as of rite now i m supposed to b studying for my cmfas m9 exam tmrw.mcm chim gitu eh?hehe.my comp got reformatted..then when i got it back..it keeps on shutting down automatically.the sasser worm got the better of my comp..i was pretty clueless for a while,cos sometimes the error might b inherent in the reformatting n so i wanna send it back.

when i got to noe abt it..ii had to go to microsoft webpage a couple of times as the comp keep reshutting..now TT's a race against time..haha.but now the comp is rather slow..someone has been doing the stupid penis names...ok..the novelty wore out as soon as i got to noe abt it..amazing how the rest r sooo amazed at it..but i think the coolest one wd be the "My Big Fat Greek Penis"other than tt,most of the names were quite lame..hello ppl..imaginatn?haha

n i gotta download all my songs..my winamp..ares.kazaalite now muz pay...wat the hell..n i m supposed to b sprucing up my blog..onli my 1st few days were so free,now i m going for interviews, seminars. classes, exams..

ok i confess.been playing ps2 games a lot..so tt's where my free time has been allocated to..winning eleven 7 n fight nights..haha..ok..peace outz

2004-04-24T00:18:00.000+08:00

a loss
lost a fren juz a few days back.he was involved in a bike accident with a taxi.the details are blurry.so i m not gonna condemn anione.juz something to share.
i knew yunus since pri school.i cant remember since when..but p5 was the earliest i can think of.his school was nxt to mine.n when it came to soccer, it was always his skool vs mine..patriotic n all.had mendaki wkend tuitn with him..where we played coin soccer and erasers as well as pens..yes pens..this game was the genius of the late Yunus..we had to keep our pens on the table,pushing it with another pen we were holding n moving them abt by using the power of the pen's end..u noe the 'click' sound b4 using ur pen..yes..we use tt to move our pens arnd.
then sec schl came n we still met each other through the Mendaki prog..n we lost touch for a while in jc n ns..the last i saw him was a few mths back at sengkang..he and his gf..i was marvelling then how he has changed..his weight dipped tremendously n things were going well.n i tot well,he deserved it..
he was one of the nicest guys i noe.somebody told me a few days back tt VS guys always haf something abt them,something bad..n the first thing i tot when i heard the news..i was like..eh..yunus is a nice VS boy..
perhaps God loves him more..we dont noe the answer.i wasnt in a joyous mood throughout the rest of my exams.n i juz did not celebrate my last paper as i tot i wd..things have changed somewhat.I realised tt i reacted in a way tt a Muslim shdnt..n somehow i need to change tt.God bless the late Yunus.may his memories remain fondly amonst us.